Endurance

Life is full of ups and downs. Sometimes the downs come all at once and it is difficult to catch my breath. This June 2008 has been one of the most challenging times that I have experienced with my Crohn's Disease. I was in the hospital for 3 weeks and it was awful. The solution? To keep taking the prednisone at 60 mgs and then get on the Imuran. The Imuran is an immuno-suppressant medication. What that means is that it will shut down my immune system causing me to be susceptible to infections. I am petrified, but I know that this is something that needs to be done. The thing that I have come to learn and accept over this last month is that I can get through this, that all I need to do is to endure. Yes, endurance is the key to my success in this situation. For now I am enduring this immense pain that wakes me up in the middle of the night. My whole left side is swollen from the prednisone, but beauty is in the eye of the beholder. I am alive and I do have many blessings to focus on. I am loved by my friends and my family and I know that I am going to make it through. It just might not happen as quickly as I would like it to happen, but it will happen. I just can't give up. I have to keep pressing forward with endurance so that I can win this race. I hope that one day though that they find a cure for this disease.