Help

I have been feeling like I am drowning with no life jacket. I know in my head and heart that God is there and is trying to help me. I just wish I felt His presence more.

I feel so alone that it hurts my stomach and I feel like vomiting. I feel like since I can't have any children due to my hysterectomy and I can't afford to adopt, my purpose as a woman is no longer there. My heart aches to be a mother so bad. I see other friends and family members with their children and it hurts that I will never have that opportunity. I feel so worthless.

I don't like feeling this way and I want a way out of feeling like this. I need help and don't know where to turn.

Please someone help me. Help me to know what my purpose is. Help me to know that there is hope for me. I hate feeling so alone.