Elder Christenson got a bear!

Elder Matthews getting a deep condition

It has been awhile since I have written. I hope I can get better at this blogging thing. Well I have been sick again :( On March 25, 2011 the surgeon installed a lifeport in me. It is a double leumen 8 french lifeport. It is supposed to help with the chemo and with iv fluids as well as blood draws. It was very scary when I woke up and felt the two incision points. I am glad that it is over now, as I am starting to get used to having something implanted in my chest.

I have lost another 10 pounds. 30 more pounds and I will be down to what I was in college :D 40 more pounds and it will be the weight I was in high school.

I have been busy with working on my book which is about dealing with Crohn's Disease. I want people out there to know that having a chronic disease like crohn's doesn't have to be life ending. That with the right support, you can make it through, and that you are never alone unless you choose to be alone. I am thankful for the very few who have stuck by my side and who have helped me to know that I am not alone. Yes it still breaks my heart that there are some out there who I have done so many things for to show them love and support and they have chosen to cut me out of their life just because there was a difference between me and someone else. It is frustrating because it didn't involve them and they still cut me out. I still love them and would still do anything to help them though.

I know that I am not a perfect person. I wish I were perfect because I don't like to offend anyone. When I do make mistakes and offend people I don't even want to be around myself. I hope that if any of you who are reading this, that if I have offended you in any way that you can find it in your heart to forgive me. I am not perfect, but I try to be a better person every day.